Dear Ramji,
I know it doesn't make sense to write to you because whatever is in our hearts and minds, reaches you without us telling you. Still, I am writing this letter without any reason as most of the things I do without reason only. I rely more on intuitive abilities than reasoning abilities. Yes, I should strike a balance between the two. I'll try, next time.
I am a huge fan of your bhakt Hanuman. I wish I had faith in you as much as he has. Although I have faith in you but not as much as Hanuman has. That's why He could cross the ocean just by taking you name and I couldn't even clear any MBA entrance (till now). Apart from faith, the kind modesty Hanuman has really sweeps me off my feet and I become a bhakt of your bhakt. So much power, intelligence, knowledge,wisdom, 8 sidhis and 9 nidhis He has but He's always humble about it.
Few words about you, Ramji. I know you are infinite. "Hari anantaa.. Hari katha anantaa", still I want words about you to flow because 'words' are what we mortals rely on sometimes when love overflows. Yes, I love you. I know you love me too because you love everyone. Infact, you are love itself. You are the sun which spreads warmth and light everywhere without any bias. Whether we take that warmth or not is our choice, but you do shower it on us.
Sometimes, I do get disheartened and morose that I am not getting what I want. At that time, I think about you and I think that if you don't want it for me, I also don't want it for myself. In your will lies my happiness. Don't mind Ramji, but before thinking this, I do try to change your will by my own Karma. Your next incarnation, Krishna, gave this knowledge that God gave humans the power of Karma which lies in the hands of humans itself. Therefore, if your will is not what I want, if I don't get what I want, I can think of only 2 reasons: Either my Karma is not enough or it's not your will, sometimes both the reasons.
I know Ramji that you want the best for me and you have already written my life story. Unlike other people say that what is written can't be changed, I believe that you can change what is written if we change our Karma. My mentor, Narsingh Goenka, tells me that if I have to ask anything from you, I shall ask for Bhakti and Love. But I want to add an extra thing to it. Ramji, give me strength to take the blows of life and improve my Karma (I need to learn hard-work and perseverance). You must be knowing about that movie: ROCKY. It's my most favorite movie series. In the last part, Rocky says, "It's not about how hard you can hit. No matter how hard you hit, life can hit you back harder. It's about how hard you can get hit and still move forward." That is why Ramji, I asked you to give me strength.
Ok Ramji. I gotta go now. No no, I am not going anywhere where you can't reach me because such a place doesn't exist. You can reach me anywhere because you are everywhere. I gotta go to office to do my donkey work. I know you are teaching me hard-work, perseverance, acceptance and patience by sending me to that office where I work like a donkey without enjoying at all. I'll learn these things soon so that you get me out of it. I know this secret of yours. Whenever you want someone to learn something, you keep pushing him and make him do it until he learns. You put obstacles in our path so that we fall and learn to pick ourselves up. You put difficulties behind us so that we learn to run. You scare us with dangers so that we can stay awake. You actually make our job easier to reach our ultimate goal, but we fools don't understand.
Anyways, about the picture that I have placed in this letter, it's my favorite picture because it depicts you and Hanuman as one. I believe that Ram and Hanuman are actually ONE. "Swami" and "Sevak" or "Bhagwan" and "Bhakt" are just roles. Hanuman is the 11th incarnation of Shiva. You are the 7th incarnation of Vishnu. Shiva and Vishnu worship each other. Even in Vedas it is mentioned that someone who wouldn't understand the oneness of Shiva and Vishnu won't reach God. Shiva and Vishnu together symbolize all the aspects of LIFE. Thus, You and Hanuman hugging each other reminds me of your oneness. Thus, this picture is my favorite.
Your Bhakt,
Ankur Oberai
