31 May 2009

Papillon

First time in a long time, a movie actually provoked my cerebrum to think deeply. Thanks to a friend of mine who gave me this movie, Papillon. Papillon is the name of a character in the movie who is imprisoned for a crime that he’s not guilty of. He attempts again and again to escape but fails. There are other characters that are unlucky or flexible enough to succumb to the circumstances. Papillon gets old but still his attempts to escape never cease. In the end, he’s a free man, free old man. I don’t care to write a review or synopsis of that movie. You can find them on rottentomatoes.com or imdb.com. But the thoughts that the movie provoked are worth sharing.

The real test of a fighter comes when he is trapped from all sides. Papillon is trapped from all sides but he finds out ways. Where there’s a will, there’s a way. Where there’s belief, there’s a wish granted. His belief that he’d be free one day sets him free. Perseverance is what he possessed the most. After every failed attempt, his desire to set himself free grew and only grew.

He was so focused to escape that he didn’t even think once what he’d do when he’s finally free. He did his ‘karam’ and never thought about ‘fal’. Sounds familiar? “karam kiye jaa, fal ki accha na kar”, from Bhagwat Gita.

What goes around comes around. Papillon was always loyal to his friend and did his most to help him or keep him safe. Whatever he did for his friends, unknown people did for Papillon during his attempts. It was as if luck was on his side. But that luck didn’t come for free. He had to maintain his character and had to pass many tests for his loyalty, strength and honor.

I think the real movie started where the movie ended. Before Papillon was free, he had an aim, a motivation and a desire to set himself free. But when he was finally free as an old man, what would he have done further? Would he be happier when he’s aimless? Before he was free, he had short spans of excitement and moments of joy during his attempts to escape. Would he ever experience the same when he’s out in the free world?

21 May 2009

Don't fuck fear...

Fear scares the shit out of me! Paradox, it is. I am most afraid of being afraid. Fear is the biggest enemy of oneself. Just imagine, if Edison would have been afraid of trying to make light bulb after failing 999 times, would there be light? Just imagine, if Copernicus, Galileo and Kepler would have been scared of revealing the truths about the universe, would there be the truth? Just imagine, if I would have been scared of relationships after failing once, would I have had so much fun with so many? (To find the right one, you have to have fun with all the wrong ones)

People spend all their lives afraid to do things that they always wanted to. Someone might be scared to try out the outfit he desires to wear, scared of what society might think. Someone might be scared to marry the one he/she loves, scared of what parents might think. Someone might be scared to allow his child to ride, scared of his child falling. Shall we stop walking for the fear of falling? If not, then why you are so scared of doing things that might shape your life or give a new direction to your life?

Whatever excuse you give to yourself for being fearful, in the end you lose. You lose time, you lose life, and you lose youth. Funny it might sound but the liner that I believe in so much is: “JO DARR GAYA, SAMJHO MARR GAYA”.

You don’t have to fight your fears. Fear is something that you create. By fighting, you prove its existence to yourself. Just face it and it will fall. Face it with actions. Action cures fear. When I was a child, I was dead scared of roaches. My father made me kill one each time I spot it. And now, I am no more scared of them. I was scared of public speaking when I was in 1st year of my college. To face my fear, I took part in a debate. I was embarrassed on stage, I turned red, my legs shivered. Somehow, I completed it. Next time, I took part in elocution. It wasn’t as bad as the debate. And since then, I am not scared of public speaking. Action cured my fear. I faced it. Fear is like darkness, you cannot dispel the darkness by pushing out the darkness from the room. But you can surely bring the light in. You cannot remove any fear by fighting it. But you can bring the action in.

I’ll tell you about my biggest fear, ex-fear i mean. Due to childhood conditioning, I was scared of talking girls. Although, my childhood was spent among girls only but as I grew up, I was conditioned at home that girls aren’t good. They distract you. They are dangerous! Oh my god! Stay away from them! If I was spot talking to a girl on phone, I was screwed. I got so scared of them that if a girl touched me, I used to shiver, turn red. I could never talk to any girl without stammering. If I had to take any favor from a girl, I used to delegate it to my male friend (I didn’t have any female friend then, for obvious reasons). One day, it dawned to me, ‘why am I so scared? I have to overcome it. I have to remove my fear.’ Then at that very moment, I called up Reliance customer care to talk to the female executive of Reliance customer care with an excuse that I cannot send messages. I stammered for a while but the politeness of her made me comfortable. Next task was to chat online with girls of my class. I did it, successfully. Next task was talking to them on phone. Slowly, steadily, I kept on increasing the intensity of the tasks. And the result is? (You must be knowing the answer if you have read my previous posts)

So what I want to say is, don’t fuck with fear. Just play around with it. It will fall like a mirage because fear doesn’t exist; it’s just created as an illusion.