5 years back.. I wrote about an incident

The Unforgettable Hug

Burden fills my heart,
Already torn apart
Trembling and rickety is my life's cart
Can't even shoot straight on the board of dart

The feelings in my heart never ended
But it cried and craved to be mended
Courage and strength, I never lended
Because I knew nothing has yet ended

Love is what my heart wants
It's tired of listening to my brain's taunts,
But what it has that my heart flaunts?
Everyday, every night this feeling haunts

Someone I love is very dear
I love you, I want to hear
But everything so hazy and unclear
Clear it can't be, I have a fear

Tonight, holding her hand is what for I crave
I want to reach the heaven from my ugly grave
Can I ask her for it, am I that much brave?
Tonight, hugging her and cry is what for I crave

I held her hand, felt that rush of blood
A lotus grew in my soul's mud
Heart beating fast, thud thud thud
Emotions within, trying to flood

Confusion grew and only grew
There was nothing she knew
She didn't feel, her heart never flew
From my eyes tears came like morning dew

But she gave me a hug to make me comfortable
It was like a mother telling her child, a fable
I cried my heart out, nothing seemed stable
I can't put on my feelings, a clear label

After the dust storm, rain came
I poured my tears, while we played the hugging game
Such bliss, my God, I even forgot my name
Never ever before, I had felt the same

She was numb, but I could hear my heart's sound
She was senseless, while my emotions rebound
I got so much strength to cry that I lost every bound
Love, sadness, happiness, and every emotion I found

Everything in my mind so fine
She loves me or not, but her presence so divine
Now I can again gaze into her eyes of wine
I am glad she thinks we didn't cross the line

In the mirror I saw..

I stowed my head under the pillow and cried endlessly. The world around me never seemed alright to me. But after a long time, it was pinching me and the time was pestering me, "Ankur, when will you be free from the clutches of other people? When will you fly? When will your time come? When will you smile with joy? When will the word 'excitement' look small to you? When, Ankur when?"

I washed my eyes, stared at myself in the mirror and saw a slave, a slave of situations. I saw a man who has made 'patience' his best ally. I saw a man who has lost belief but has kept his faith intact. I saw a man whose heart pumps with the power of faith, only. I saw 'Ankur', a seedling that sprouts and clears its way through the layers of earth and becomes a tree. I saw potential but no power yet. I saw courage but no strength yet. I saw a wheel, that is being pushed to the top of the mountain, waiting to run. I saw helplessness with help all around. I saw 'wait' standing with his rare partner called 'Certainty'. I felt the words, 'No pain, no gain', so deeply that pain ceased, 'gain' lost its meaning.

In the mirror I saw...what I have become and what I can become if I leave what I have become.

P.S.: I don't know what happens to me after watching movies like 'Udaan', 'Taare Zameen Par', 'Shawshank Redemption', 'Papillon', books like 'Not without my daughter'.